Ledgers

Though often times I feel sort of frustrated with the message in church, today was not really one of those days. Today we talked about some of the parts of 1 Cor 13:4-8 where it talks about love. Now we sometimes have no issues with understanding the things love is but we neglect often times what love isn't. That's why in my list of questions, I selected all the ones that it said were contrary to love.
Often times I try to just ignore what happened last year without even knowing that I still hold it sometimes as today's lesson indicated. Love keeps no record of wrongs. That's what the message was about, when it came to my friends, I really had no record of wrongs, I tend to overlook a lot of minor sins because of my love for them (1 Peter 4:8). Last year was a time when I received a lot attacks on both my faith and my character.. Now with tax season coming and everything, I find it good to think about the past year at a glance and see some of the highs and lows that happened therein. Now I find myself with a good ending to my last year reviews, destroying my ledger I have created for 4 people last year. It doesn't matter if they did me wrong, it has been wrong for me to hold it. Usually it has me joking now since it all truly makes no sense why it happened the way it did.
The List:
Randy, I thought so quickly of all the things that were negative about what happened, but you were a great pastor before that so now I need those records of rights that you did but must forgive and give to Christ the wrongs you did. I now let you be the one to bare the burden of what happened if you so choose. I'm over it.
Joy, I truly only think about what you did when I'm forcibly asked, so I'm over that, if you continue to hold it, it's your own burden to carry.
David, I know you were trying to do what was best and possibly at that time made a few wrong decisions based on someone else's plan. I'm sorry you got dragged down with this whole thing. You were a pretty good friend before that. So with you I will remember the rights done.. and forgive and remove my ledger of the wrongs that were felt from you. Be happy, Christ is still the savior of both the self-righteous and the sinners...by his grace alone..
Roger, I know you truly had very little knowledge of what happened, so your basis to do what you did had to come from someone else's understanding. Unfortunately your decisions were months and months later, I don't know why you'd still do that then be the way you were to me, but it's gone as well.
Now this was not an attempt to attack anyone, it's just a realization that I was keeping some things from last year that just needed to be let go. I am over this situation and today was the day to remove the ledger of wrongs I had of you guys. I do pray that you guys would be able to keep no record of wrongs, go against the sinful nature of our flesh and cling to the glorious amazing savior that forgives and separates sin from the east to the west. Not claiming to be a better man than any of you, just claiming Christ is. Holy Father, cleanse your children from their sins, give them hearts that are flesh that beat for you, and most importantly lord.. Command what you will and do what you command of us.
Amen..